i think, no no no no no i believe i am the worst person that has stepped foot on this fragile world. i am so inconsiderate of others. i think or i was forced to believe that i was blessed with everything one needed in life. A stable home, lots of food, a prestigous school to go to, a modest God to praise, a handful of friends, a loving family, a wonderful mom and an amazing boyfriend. and guess what.. i wasnt contented well who will ever be? but believe me or not i was once contented with this garbage dump of problems called my life but then i thought i could have done more with it.. well i really couldve.. juggling everything every stupid day of my life wasnt that easy you know.. it was either paying too much attention to something and ignoring the others or acting selfishly and trying to attempt to do everything i could.. i didnt notice that i was taking advantage of people who cared for me.. i would always, ALWAYS lose my temper and start screaming at everyone who would annoy me. yes, it was pretty much my downfall.. my abnormal temper, my violent mood swings and my selfish heart.. My mom raised me to be a good person, a person who would do her part in society, be caring and nto act selfishly at all.. but as i grew up i realized i had everyone at my command, i was and still am an only child and you think it ends there.. my mom is very tolerant she is extremely the opposite of myself we have our share of mannerisms but thats pretty much it. i became very abusive and i got used to the fact that i could just get what i want.. as i grew a little older it wasnt the same scene anymore.. and i wasnt getting any nicer.. i was yeah a bitch to everyone.. and i just have to say im sorry to everyone i have once hurt.. its really very hard for me to adjust to this kind of life where everything else does not revolve around me.. i have become the meanest person alive.. i am so sorry specially to the people i have taken advantage of my mom, my family and everyone else affected. and to my boyfriend i have become the worst person in a relationship ever.. i know im impossible most of the time but its really you thats holding my life together without you my life would be alot worst than it is now, i wouldnt know where to start picking up the pieces of my so called life.. baby, i am so sorry, i know ive hurt you so much and you dont deserve this but im telling you one last time.. I LOVE YOU, i always have and always will.. will you please forgive me?
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