BRAIN DRAIN.

crap my mind is runing out of juice. i cant even write about my daily ramblings anymore. its very very annoying. i used to write stuff before i go to sleep.. yahh know... well not necessarily about what happened that day its mostly about emotions or repressed anger hahahaha. well. im starting to believe that im losing my touch.. i mean.. i cant please anyone! my mom eman myself.. waah.. its gettin pretty crazy up there.. im so unsatisfied with what i "cant" do.. i suck. man.. im usually pissed at home so i stay locked up in my room.. school is consuming my energy so when the time comes for "our" together time.. im draiined to death.. its been wuite awhile since i went out with the girls so.. i miss them badly.. i am so sick of singing to myself everyday.. im tired of watching dvds and watching reruns before i go to bed.. man.. i have to start living again.. good ol happy go lucky me.. the alcoholic bum.. haha the tween. aww. man im gonna be 18 soon.. its not about the digits,, its about the way of thinking.. man i miss the carefree days.. i miss highschool.. i know i have to move on.. but.. MAN. i hate my life right now. well not completely but.. half of it i guess.. hmm havin fun? i know im not..