slept around 5 am and woke up noon.. bummed around. again. made alot of kids cry today i am so proud of myself ahaha.. watched stick it in north gate uhmm ate ni sushi boat.. super stuffed.. ate like 12 sashimis rice soup and salad. yes i love sashimi. ahahha

got into a fight again and i cant beleive this is happening almost everyday.. ndi ko na maintindihan. naiirita na ko.. ndi ko na alam gagawin ko we both have issues really.
i just cant give up on this i cant deny the fact that i love him very much and it hurts soooo soo mch to see us like this.. i really think i need an anger management program and he has to also.. gad wer not even married and i think we both need to see a psychiatrist.. this is fuckin serious. i am so pissed with myself. i dont know what to do.. i can barely type the words that are literally running through my head.. i cant evne look at myself in the mirror it sucks.. i want to destroy eveyrthing thats bugging me.. including myself. i cant do this now.. i am so messed up. TOO messed up.